the world is very young by slow pulp

i'll take note of faces repeating hold on to them i know 
that it can be fleeting...

i have been on so many walks with my bestie recently. am i in heaven? i jest but i am pretty close. we're young so it can only get better. i bought an old book yesterday on our walk. i've been looking for a book that focusses on the lives of women throughout history, like a broad overview of history and geography all at once, as i find that many historical texts are eurocentric and excludes societies deemed more "primative" in the time frame of writing. this is why i often struggle with books, i want to read something that challenges my ideas but does not imbue me with colonialist, imperialist, or general bias about a topic as i A) dont want to be a cunt but B) think that education should be impartial. although, when i notice a bias i do like to question what is or is not correct. it's like a game of cat and mouse. this book is interestingly published in april 1933, a period of time in between literally most significant historical events to still have impact on us and or engineered our current society. it's called 'the girl through the ages' by dorothy margaret stuart. she dedicates it to her 'seven girl friends; averil, barbara, cecily, denise, diana, margaret, and mary' which i find endearing. it covers babylonia, ancient egypt, ancient greece, the roman empire, the dark ages, feudal europe, the later middle ages, renaissance italy and france, tudor england, the seventeenth century,

augustan england, from the age of reason to the age of steam (this one intrigues me), and the nineteenth century. i do wish the book had a wider geographical scope but i am pretty happy to find what i have been looking for. it includes beautiful pictures that i am so excited to see. even though it was 7.50, i am happy to pay for knowlege. it also has a beautiful green jacket. i've been trying to get weirder recently, mainly for my own health. i'm trying to cut down on my social media intake, get a good sleeping routine, eating better and by that i mean eating more especially things i like. i also cleaned my room. i'm also trying out setting out themes for my weeks. this weak was cleaning then creatig with beads and making tarot cards in the evening. a bit of a mouthful... next week is poetry/reading in the day and clay in the evening. i am keeping myself busy trying to encourage myself to do the things i like. i did start drawing again recently but then i hit a crossroads and lost confidence to continue. i really do wish and dream for a house. for some reason it represents self actualisation to me. it always has. i do wish to get away. i also wish to dissapear sort of. not dissapear, but travel, leave some things behind. settle. i think we must all travel if we'd like to see our environment before it leaves us. it's okay. i will have to work hard to make my dreams come true.

grinning from ear to ear, india xox