my beautiful solstice

half way through the year, i am so tired

today i a went to the international grocery shops with my dad after he went to the barbers. i got many things. no fruit this time as i usually get blood oranges and am allergic to some other fruits but i got drinks and pizza bruschetta (!!!) as well as salt and pepper cashews. i bought myself a 25.06.25 edition of vogue polska in the eastern european shop to teach myself polish. my dad said my grandma would be proud of me. at the moment though, i only know food related words... and niebieski (blue) because i was annoying my dad with it last night lol. because i studied media and lanuage + literature at college, i am familiar with both the layout of fashion magazines as well as the frequency of language so i can read some things. i am trying to read my horoscope (horoskop) but it's difficult so far. i figured out that i am a koziorozec (capricorn). i will get better. it's hot in the uk. right now. when i left the house this morning it was 28c but started raining when i got to my destination. wasn't happy. now its hot again but i opened my window. it feels as if i kept all my dreams in this room and just let them out because they make me too hot keeping them all in. yesterday i painted in the grass outside. it was so hot my acrylic formed a crusty layer on top in about 10 minutes. i had an idea but i think im going to start again because i painted over some important lines i can't find. i was inspired by celinko's interpretations of klimts metallic borders. i drew lilies and lily pads from a walk my bestie and i went on recently. i plan to reconstruct my life out in spain soon. dumped my ex again to make room for my two weeks of peace. i'm a little dissapointed but it's for the best. how many broken promises before you leave? ... at one point i thought it would be forever. no secret today. might read the cards in a bit.

grappling with time, india xox