omg i'm sick and ill and a hater...

i think i have covid but it could just be a dramatic 
cold or something...

just finished the last essay i had to do and because i got ill shortly after my last entry i almost died (i'm kidding but i keep coughing and i hate coughing i'm like a big hacking cat right now). i'm listening to this playlist i made after we "went on a break" (he told his mates about me then was on tinder less than a month later then started acting mad weird and it stressed me out too much my health was affected) and i really like it. the cover is the crazy nun from black narcissus and i'm listening to get gone by fiona apple but it was just get out of my house my kate bush. i forgot what i was going to talk about here... i'm not really sure what to say... i've been inside all day recovering. i've been sewing and making beads and pendants out of clay and calling my bestie and making chips and taking it slowly, blogging here. i really want to take a holiday, like fuck off from uni to norway or something and never come back. i've been really eyeing up sorenga recently, especially the urban swimming area thing. it's in the city of oslo and it's built up and shit and theres just a swimming area in the fjords and i'd love to go there and get a tan but not go in because i'll 100% get cold. now patti smith's piss factory is on and oh god how i love this song. its *exactly how i feel* today.

anyway, wishing misfortune on my ex! india xox