everything i tell you

by india southgate.

in my head
you nurse a cold bottle
and you listen intently
next to me
looking away 
out into the night sky

i tell you the things a phone
couldn't make you feel
i ask you how you are
i tell you how i wished it was different
i tell you how scared i was to meet you
i tell you how i understand
and i pretend i'm still talking 
about two days ago
and not almost a year ago
and i pretend your love for me 
hasn't dwindled
and you put your arm around me
and squeeze
as i tell you i love you
and you jolt away and point at the sky
as a comet passes
and you ask if i could see it too.

you couldn't comet, you couldn't
let me wish fast enough
could you?

[unpublished]

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